I'm Not Dead Yet
If you've been following the blog, you've noticed that I've been a little lax with posting. This isn't due to not having a lot of things that I want to share or write about or just not feeling like writing. If I'm honest, right now I'm in a season that doesn't give me much time to write but gives me a lot to write about. It's been an intense time of spiritual growth and having to choose the best things out of all of the good things.
Blogging to me is a good thing, and at times it's one of the best things that the Lord allows me to do. But right now, there are other good things that take precedent, especially because it's my last semester of college.
If I don't have time to blog, what am I doing? A lot! And it's a lot of good things, but they are also things that take time away from blogging. You know: school work, spending time with some great lady friends, Bible studies, and soaking up wisdom and knowledge. While it's fun, there are times when it's overwhelming (primarily the school work), and I find myself saying, "Come quickly, Jesus!"
There are days when I long for heaven. Pure and simple.
A Bible study that I co-lead is going through Philippians this semester. This past week we looked at Philippians 1:20-30.
I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, so that through my being with you again your boasting in Christ Jesus will abound on account of me.
As we read through this passage this past week, it was like balm to my weary soul. I needed to be reminded that even on the hard days this life isn't permanent. And when the Lord does call me home, I'm going to be with Him and that will be far greater.
But I'm not dead yet. My encouragement and hope is that of Paul's. I will continue to do the good work that the Lord has prepared for me: to love and serve Him, to share the gospel, and to watch Him be glorified in myself and the people around me.
And sometimes that means not getting to blog as much as I would like, but the work that God has me doing is far greater.
Side note, editing is in full swing for my senior film, which means long hours in the editing lab are in store, but I'm excited for the finished product!
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